Submission

I received a great word today that spoke to my spirit tremendously! If anyone knows me, I'm a very independently proud person. It's difficult for me to let my guard down and allow someone else to take care of my needs (other than allowing God).

I've experienced some personal hurts, church hurts, family hurts and friend hurts. I've always pride myself in being able to let those past hurts go, but through actions I've noticed that I have not let all the things go. They fester in other ways such as my obsessive compulsiveness. Compulsive to shop, overwork, overdo everything. In all things, I overachieve.

It's difficult for me to completely submit to others. I control how I submit. Not just to authority but even friendships. If I feel myself getting too close, I pull away. I've always thought of people as being disposable in order to not allow my heart to feel. I became captive to my own disease which was eating away at my very being. Keeping me from being my loving self. Changing my character. Tearing away at my soul! The more I fought, the more I hurt. I kept over analyzing my relationships. It didn't help that I was also a psyche major. I was dying inside.

I had to choose to submit to loving others no matter what! Submit to giving myself away to situations I can't control. Submit myself to sharing the REAL me with others. Allowing myself freedom to be me at any cost!

If you are just like me and need to be freed, delivered or set free! First, forgive yourself! Second, forgive those who took your innocence from you by way of lying, deceiving, cheating, back biting, prejudice (any form), violating, perpetrating, robbing, placing you in an adult position too soon!

They didn't realize what they were doing to you! They didn't realize what you were to become! They didn't realize Who's you were! They didn't realize why you were in their lives and the blessing you could have been! They didn't realize your potential! They didn't realize the places God was going to take you! They didn't realize WHO YOU ARE! I say are because you have always been what you were to become. You just had to see it for yourself!

Third, open your heart to new opportunities, new relationships, new disappointments (because God can heal you again), new experiences! If you don't have new, you're not moving forward. Accept the new things and submit yourself to whatever God has for you to champion! It will definitely be rewarding. He promised! The bible says that "I am a rewarder of them that diligently seeks me"!

Submit yourself to more love, peace and joy today!


Much love,

Schawayna Raie
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